Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Hopeful

Earlier today we did something that we never dreamed that we would do. But as some dreams don't come true, others are realized. This summer we spent much of our free time weighing the pros and cons of proceeding with In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) with Preimplantation Genetic Diagnosis (PGD). Sometime in June we decided this was something we wholeheartedly wanted to pursue, together. We have been to all the necessary appointments, injected all the necessary drugs, undergone the many early morning ultrasounds and blood work, to arrive at this point today.


Today, we are able to show you a picture of what will hopefully be our next child, at only 5 days after fertilization. Today, this tiny embryo was transferred back where is should have been from the start, but couldn't be, due to our desire to prevent ANY more of our children from having SMA. The PGD provided us with the kind of peace of mind that we weren't sure we would ever have again. The assurance, that this child does NOT have SMA.


As far as we feel we both have come, we are only in the "infant" stages of this long journey. We have many more milestones to achieve before a sigh of relief may come, but hold on tightly to that possibility. Today is surreal, and full of hope. Our hearts are full and ready for this next chapter. In subtle ways, such as a song, a racehorse named "The Flying Pig", last words before being put to sleep for surgery, Ryan has shown us that he is here with us as we seek to fulfill a dream we didn't know we could dream.


It is with a very faithful heart that I ask for your prayers, once again. For this new life inside, for life lost, for the life our family may someday lead together.


The Hawns

8 comments:

Elizabeth said...

You have my prayers, most definitely! What an exciting - and bittersweet - journey. Godspeed!

"I will put breath into you, and you will come to life." Ezekiel 37:6 NLT

World of Waxes said...

Jenn and Chris,
You don't know who I am but I was introduced to you and your family through my work. we donated to Ryan's fundraiser. I wanted to let you know that your story has touched my heart. I will pray for your family as you continue your journey.

dickinsonfamily said...

What an exciting step! You have our love and prayers, especially at this tender time. Hugs to you, and hope you have great news in a few weeks!

Zehr_Family said...

You have my prayers as always! I know we have never met but this journey you have taken me on to get to know all of you, has been a good one. I have learned so much. I pray for a healthy pregnancy and baby. I know no matter what happens, you will all remain Faithful! God Bless all of you! I look forward to more posts during this time.

Lisa P. said...

Oh Jenn, I am so excited for you and your family! I will be thinking of you every day during this new journey! After having our own heart baby, Grant, we nervously decided to go down this path again...and are due New Years Eve! I will stay closely "tuned in"!!

Andrea said...

What exciting news!!! I will continue to pray for your family and this little one who is growing daily. I am anticipating many updates!

chindogg said...

I am so very excited to read this. I will be hoping and praying for all of you!! All I have ever wanted for you guys is happiness!!! So much love coming from over here! Love, Chaney

Anonymous said...

I am so excited and hopeful for you both. I will keep you in my prayers! :) Love, Aunt Kelly