In the business of my day, I found time to take a few moments at Ryan's grave today. I brought him some beautiful sunflowers and other fall arrangements to place in a vase near his grave. This is only a temporary vase until the permanent memorial is placed, which will have a vase on it. Since I was there last, a lot more grass has grown to nearly cover his grave. As I stood there today, I couldn't stop thinking about how this is the closest I will ever be again to his physical body, which was so beautiful to me. He seemed so close, yet so out of reach as I stood above him today. I prayed again that he would come see me soon. Oh, how I miss him.