I feel like I am holding onto the edge of a cliff by a fingertip. That I/we are stuck out here, by ourselves. We were foolish enough to walk to the edge (have another baby) and tempt the fate that we may fall off. Now we have fallen, but are hanging by a fingertip. There is a huge valley below, empty, desolate, but the power of one tiny wimper can echo for miles. We took the chance of walking to the edge because we knew that our tiny cry for help would be heard by God and that He would help us. Right now, I just want to ask Him to sling me back on top, to hear my tiny cry. I think, maybe if I just asked Him one more time to see the love for Ryan here on earth and to realize that we would be forever greatful to spend our lives with him. Maybe if I ask One More Time, He would hear me... louder, clearer. Would He change His mind and work the miracle that we all know He can? Is it okay to ask Him to change his mind? I want to, I am.
Jenn
8 comments:
Jenn,
Ask again for that miracle!
All of your friends are asking the same thing and if it's His will we'll see that miracle happen.
In the meantime, remember that you're not alone. You have many, many people who care about you and your family.
Jenn - God wants us to ask. He begs us to ask. We are all asking. We pray it is HIS will to provide one of His miracles. We rest in the fact that He is the master of all things and HIS will is ultimately for good at all times.
You are such an incredibly strong person who has so much faith! Your faith and God's love for you all will get you through whatever the future brings for your family. Many hugs and prayers going out to you guys. Helen asks every night if Baby Ryan is doing any better. and Charlotte is still 'Baby Charlotte' on our prayer list. I think about you often and hope you find some comfort in the support from the L&D family.
Karen T
Jenn-wow you are such an amazing woman and an amazing mom! God hears your prayers and He is holding you. He still works miracles, even today, and you can totally ask for one. I'm sorry that you feel alone. I wish I could come give you a hug, but we've never met, so maybe it wouldn't mean anything. My heart goes out to you and we are praying for your family--for Ryan, for Charlotte, and for you. May God give you strength and the miracle that you request.
Jenn,
Always ask for that miracle. Be specific in your prayer, even though God knows every detail. Have the conversation with him like you would your best friend. Also know that whatever He decides he uses all of his children to touch others and change lives. You are amazing and so many of us are growing through your experience, thank you for sharing your family with us.
We are all asking in unison right beside you.
Becky Stang
Romans 5:3-5...hope! We are praying for you.
I know this is so hard, Jenn. We know God is fully capable of healing and performing miracles, but it's difficult to understand why there are times He chooses not to. That's how I felt when my dad passed away. No matter what the outcome, remember who God is and EVERYTHING He does will be made perfect in time. Even if we don't understand. Like everyone else said, keep asking God, keep begging God (just like we all are). Wow, I just looked up what Romans 3:3-5 was. Couldn't remember if it was the "by prayer and petition make your requests known to God" verse. (but it's not, that's Phillipians 4:6). However, the Romans verse is what got me though my dad passing away and all the family "junk" I had to deal with afterwards. Just thought it was neat that someone shared it with you. We love you and your family so much! And I will continue begging God for a miracle with you. Love, Lindsay
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